PISSED RIGHT OFF

I am soooooo pissed off right now its unbelievable. You would think that with Matt being made redundant he might contribute to the house more in other ways, like say, the washing up from me cooking the night before that I asked him to do, or say, getting some milk that I asked him to do, that he told me he would, but noooooo. He has spent the last 5 fucking hours playing on the bloody xbox, washing up still there, milk still not in the fridge! And now hes telling me I 'fucked up his car' well, excuse me if turning the volume of the stereo up and/or down and altering the base levels cos they were too fucking high is, 'fucking up his car'. Put a fucking proper stereo in the damned thing then, I thought the whole point of sound systems is that the volume and base are adjustable. That, AND I HAVE NOT NOTICED ANY DIFFERENCE IN FUCKING SOUND QUALITY SINCE IVE BEEN DRIVING THE FUCKING THING!!!!
I told him what I wanted to do for tea so I half expected he would check if it could be cooked from frozen, but no, and it cant so now I have no idea what to do for tea and I just hurt my hand slamming the door and locking him outside. His own tough luck for not putting on a jacket and shoes or socks, he can bloody well freeze for all I care right now.
I hate how this is my fault in his eyes, ive been at work all day, everyday this week, bar my my midwife appointment which I think is fair enough, he has so far had 2 half days and plans on spending as little time in work the rest of the week and his last day is Friday anyway.
I just dont know where else to turn to when I get upset like this, I cant tell my friends or family in Reading cos I dont want them to know, I dont know anybody in Southampton I can talk to so im left with the virtual world to rant in, which is probably for the best. Im just so angry with him right now and in floods of tears. I was really hoping for a nice evening like last night but that just isnt going to happen now. He was going to go to the pub anyway, which irritates me, hes the one who has lost his job, hes the one who tells me not to spend money, and hes the one going to the pub everyweek. But 'its ok cos ian is paying' Ian who is his mate who him and his wife are both on benefits so not exactly flashing the cash around themselves, its ridiculous it really is! He just doesnt seem to care or realise how much he irritates me and makes me angry, because its never his fault, always mine, im always the stupid lazy bitch, clearly!
*screams*